I finally did it.
I cut my bangs.
Ever since Christmas I’ve been growing them out.
Why? I’m not sure.
I think it started when Dagmar had her hair cut and styled. As I sat there in the beauty parlor watching a professional turn my little girl’s pony tail into a young woman’s style – I started to feel a little dowdy. After all I’ve been wearing my hair the same way for years now.
Maybe it was the combination of country music and the intoxicating scent of hair product – but I suddenly realized that I wanted a change. I would grow my bangs out and get a style.
The problem is that I have naturally curly hair. It doesn’t like change. It does whatever it pleases on any given day. I’ve learned to subdue it by keeping it trimmed.
What was I thinking?
This life without trimming was fine at first – but slowly started to drive me crazy.
My subdued locks went wild with no restraint.
I actually bought <gulp> product to use. I gummed my bangs up with hair gel and sprayed them with hairspray – but as soon as I left the house the curls would bounce out every which way.
The family was supportive at first, although their eyebrows went up in amazement when the hair spray came out. Was their minimum maintenance momma actually using hair product?! What would be next? Heels?
When I would get discouraged the girls would say, “Just give it a little more time Mom”. Even my husband encouraged me to let it grow.
Yesterday was one of those incredibly awful bad hair days.
The humidity was high after two days of rain and no amount of hair product was going to subdue my errant curls.
I had corkscrews growing off my forehead in random patterns. I cringed every time I passed by a mirror.
I mentioned to my girls that I was ready to chop off those bangs – and in return I got wan little smiles that seemed to say, “Yes Mom – it’s time!”
This morning I casually mentioned to my husband that I thought it was time to cut my bangs. Even he agreed, saying, “Will you cut it yourself or go in to the salon?”
So I cut them.
It was such a relief.
I felt like myself again. It was comfortable. My curls and I were at peace.
I feel a little like Olivia Walton. In several episodes of the Walton’s she feels the need to make a change, to be or look different. Yet at the end of the hour-long show, no matter what she tried – soloist in the church choir or a new hairdo – she realized that she rather liked things the way the were before.
She went searching for something that she already had.
Me too. It just took me four months.
But I found it – my very own style – the one that has worked for years.
It’s good to be back.